For months now I have been suffering from abdominal pain. It is typically located in the lower center – left area. The pelvic region.
It is at times a constant dull pain and others it is a quick sharp pain. Occasionally I feel it down onto my thighs, up nearer to my chest, around my back and/or spread to the right side. This pain has been very sporadic and paroxysmal. There seems to be neither rhyme nor reason as to why or when the pain occurs.
I have been to see my doctor multiple times for this now. The first time I went to see her, she preformed an exam and sent me for an ultra-sound (Is there anything in the world more uncomfortable than an internal exam … yes 2 in 3 days!) During my ultra-sound a large 6 cm cyst (6 cm… that is nearly the size of a tennis ball or comparable to a pool (billiard) ball) was discovered on my left ovary. I revisited my doctor to discuss the results of the ultra-sound and she referred me to a gynecologist due to the size of the cyst. (*side note* The gynecologist will take 4-6 months to make an appointment for me) She recommended taking pain killers in the meantime to help with the pain. She advised that if it gets worse to go back to see her and if it gets excruciating to go directly to Emergency. But other than that to await the gynecologist.
Approximately a month later (4-5 weeks) the severe pain returned. (*side note* Keep in mind the pain never left, it was just mostly bearable and dulled down with pain killers) I had to leave work as I felt as if someone was repeatedly stabbing me and twisting the knife (Take that ovary! *stab* And that! *twist*) . I returned to the doctor with the pain nearly unbearable (*side note* we are talking 7-9 out of 10 … constant 7 up to a 9 when the “stabbing” pain starts). She performed another exam 3rd one in a month … ulg. She expressed mild concern for the size of the cyst, but seemed more concerned that there could be an infection caused by the IUD (*Side note* I have (or rather had) an IUD. I had these IUD’s inserted for 10 years (A total of 2 at 5 years each)). Because she thought the pain could be caused by my IUD, we decided to remove the IUD as it was nearing time for replacement anyway. She advised leaving it out for at least 30 days to determine if this was the cause. If the pain remained after a few days she would introduce antibiotics to fight (possible) infection. She advised a day of rest at home, so I stayed home from work and worked at home instead *face palm*. I still suffered most of the day, but the pain was not as bad as the day before. The doctor called me at home the following day to check up on me, She left me a message with her home number to contact her, which I found highly unusual. I did not know whether to feel impressed or terrified. WOW! What a great doctor calling me at home to check up on me and make sure I am feeling … wait, what!?? What is wrong, what did she discover? Am I dying? When I finally spoke with her we discussed how I was feeling and the level my pain was at (which was about a 6 on a 1-10 scale). She informed me that she would like me to have some blood-work done. She made sure to tell me not to worry or panic, in fact I think her near exact words were as follows:
I do not want you to worry or panic. I want you to get this test done to check for ovarian cancer. I do not think you need to worry, I just want to rule it out.
An acceptable explanation, but how do you expect a person not to panic, worry and freak out when that dreaded C word comes up.
Now, here I sit not only in physical pain but in emotional pain as well trying so hard to convince myself that this is just a precaution to rule it out.
Relax. Breathe. Calm down. Do not panic. Do not worry. Count to 10. for crying out loud … RELAX!
So I need to go and pick up the requisition today. Then I need to get the blood work done.
Then I shall spend the next few days losing my mind, discussing worst case scenario with myself, freaking out while trying to talk myself down all the while I will impatiently await my doctors call to inform me that I do NOT have ovarian cancer and I let it all go to my head despite repeating to myself “everything is fine, this is just to rule cancer out”